Notes on a Silencing: A Memoir

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Notes on a Silencing: A Memoir

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A "powerful and scary and important and true" memoir (Sally Mann, Carnegie Medal-winning author of Hold Still) of a young woman's struggle to regain her sense of self after trauma, and the efforts by a powerful New England boarding school to silence her---at any cost.

New York Times Book Review Notable Book
New York Times Book Review Editors’ Choice
A Time Best Book of 2020
Marie Claire Best True Crime Book of 2020
Library Journal Best Book of the Year

Nominated for a Goodreads Choice Award
When the elite St. Paul's School came under state investigation after extensive reports of sexual abuse on campus, Lacy Crawford thought she'd put behind her the assault she'd suffered decades before, when she was fifteen. Still, when detectives asked for victims to come forward, she sent a note.
With her criminal case file reopened, she saw for the first time evidence that corroborated her memories. Here were depictions of the naïve, hardworking girl she'd been, a chorister and debater, the daughter of a priest; of the two senior athletes who assaulted her and were allowed to graduate with awards; and of the faculty, doctors, and priests who had known about Crawford's assault and gone to great lengths to bury it.
Now a wife, mother, and writer living on the other side of the country, Crawford learned that police had uncovered astonishing proof of an institutional silencing years before, and that unnamed powers were still trying to block her case. The slander, innuendo, and lack of adult concern that Crawford had experienced as a student hadn't been the imagined effects of trauma, after all: these were the actions of a school that prized its reputation above anything, even a child.
This revelation launched Crawford on an extraordinary inquiry into the ways gender, privilege, and power shaped her experience as a girl at the gates of America's elite. Her investigation looks beyond the sprawling playing fields and soaring chapel towers of crucibles of power like St. Paul's, whose reckoning is still to come. And it runs deep into the channels of shame and guilt, witness and silencing, that dictate who can speak and who is heard in American society.
An insightful, mature, beautifully written memoir, Notes on a Silencing is an arresting coming-of-age story that wrestles with an essential question for our time: what telling of a survivor's story will finally force a remedy?

Lacy Crawford is the author of the novel Early Decision. She lives in Southern California with her family.

ISBN: 9780316491556

ISBN-10: 9780316491556

Publisher: Little, Brown and Company

Publication Date: 07/07/2020 - 12:00am

On Sale: 07/07/2020 - 12:00am

Pages: 400


Biography & Autobiography / Personal Memoirs

Biography & Autobiography / Women

True Crime / Sexual Assault

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